No Snow, But a BIG EGO!
I have a terrible, terrible thing inside of me. My LARGE, disasterous, obtrusive, ignorant, naive, evil, consuming, EGO! I try to think back to when it began, and I actually can remember. Middle School. I was good at typing and I was taking my first computer class. Computers being the only things I was good at, I would love to point out to people how to do things, get the thanks, beat them in a typing race, then shove it in there face. Why? Why am I like this, and why has it continued until today. It’s only gotten worse. I have been warned about it, understandably so, but put it off like its no big deal, and I will worry about it later.
It’s never going to change unless I put an end to it soon …quickly. It’s obvious that changes take time, and that I will need much time to change my ways. I will be on constant prayer mode about this!
Please if you guys could pray about this, that would be great!
Oh by the way, I’m done making music. It was fun, but it’s clear that that is not where my talent is. The only reason I can produce something somewhat good is because I am skilled with software and know how to do a lot of stuff. I’ve never been musically inclined. I’ve tried instruments and all that, but it’s just not me.
I must stop here and rethink my future.
The songs I have finished though I will put up on my website. You can download those if you want. I am going to be focusing on what matters, instead of just trying to show off.
Ohhh I am so selfish. Thank You Lord for your forgiveness, otherwise I would be condemned for all my evil thoughts and intentions and actions. I am glad I don’t have to yell “Lord, forgive me for my selfish thoughts!”, because he has forgiven me for my past, present, and future.
February 11th, 2009 at 7:52 am
oh b this is sweet!
February 11th, 2009 at 10:01 am
what you CAN do though is say “thank you for forgiving me for my selfish thoughts!” I do this a lot.
I am looking forward to hearing the rest of your tunes.
316 is great
February 11th, 2009 at 2:31 pm
“…humility precedes honor…”
February 12th, 2009 at 5:18 am
Humility is such a sweet thing. But don’t let it go to your head!
February 12th, 2009 at 8:47 am
yeah, you gotta leave the song-making to Carlel and Richie Fresh.
February 12th, 2009 at 1:15 pm
u b but a selfish b
February 12th, 2009 at 2:11 pm
yea b just leave it to me and richie fresh we’ll handle the music you handle the software. but b that’s pretty deep i admit doing that sometimes for football for the few people that was slower than me i would race them, win, and shove it so hard in their face over and over ann i loved doing that. thank god for forgiveness
February 12th, 2009 at 6:55 pm
Hehe, I read your blog to Connor and he said, “Yeah, it’s one of his weak spots.”
February 13th, 2009 at 8:54 am
I really started to get worried when you called out Satan in your ABJ article comment…pretty ignorant…but now I’m glad you’re repenting. It is sweet to see. God is good, if you need to boast, boast about Christ!